Last summer I stepped waaaay out of my comfort zone and wrote an essay. I didn’t even think twice about it… just wrote it… and wrote it from my heart. It felt like a story that had been sitting and waiting patiently for about 8 years – waiting its turn to come out. Finally the time arrived when I saw a request for essays about how this little book called “Eat Pray Love” changed your life.
I started typing and the story poured out of me like the first cup of coffee on a cold morning. It just flowed. I knew exactly what I wanted to share. Yet it was one of the most difficult 1000 words I have ever written.
The story had been in my head for all those years and I’ve moved on, my children have grown so much, I’ve grown so much, found new love, but boy when I was typing those words for the first time … it stung just as if it were 2008 again.
Letting that story out provided a great deal of clarity to me about what was going on in my life back then, the things that transpired afterwards and my journey to where I am today.
My essay is being featured in Red magazine in the U.K. in their June issue – here is an excerpt from my piece that is featured in their article:
“It was 2008. I had just put my two children to bed and was now lying in bed myself. I did this every night: crawled into bed with the TV on, while my husband watched the other TV downstairs.
We were experts at this dance—we existed in each other’s presence but were merely going through the motions. I assumed this was normal, just what happens to a couple when you have two kids and two careers, you’re tired and the marriage isn’t new anymore. Still, some part of me knew something was wrong—I just couldn’t put my finger on it.
It felt like a lightbulb went off. It was okay to admit that I didn’t like my married life anymore. It was okay.
So often, women think they can’t change their lives and make themselves happy if they have babies waiting for them at home. But reading about what Elizabeth went through, her years abroad, created a door for women like me to walk through. It created a space for us to leave our unhappiness behind.
Now I became determined to find my own voice. I started to make the shift from “I’m going to just stay in this situation and hope it fixes itself” to “I’m going to do something to change my life” because we have only one life—we better live it.”
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