I didn’t think I would make it this far, Day 20, 21 to be exact – I didn’t want to write about this starting on Day 1 because I literally didn’t know how far I would make it, so posting about it seemed futile at the time.
It was a rough start – I had just started back doing yoga and lightly working out again after having to take several months off – read more about where I was at the end of 2015 here.
Here I am – 3 weeks into this journey:
- Yoga practice 6x per week. The suggestion is 4x per week at the studio and 2x per week at home. (P90x3 Yoga and 21 Day Fix Yoga has been awesome for me to supplement on my days I’m not in the studio).
- Meditation – starting with 5 minutes 2x per day and we are now up to 15 min 2x per day.
- Nutrition – focus on whole foods and one 3 day fruit cleanse in week 4.
“40 Days to Personal Revolution” (read more about what it is HERE) is offered a few times a year at my yoga studio and I tried it once before in 2011 and made it about 2 weeks before I fell off the wagon.
I wasn’t in the right place for it then – I treated it like “just another workout” with a goal of losing weight and fitting into my jeans which would probably have been a side effect had I stuck with it, but of course, I didn’t see the entire value of what this had to offer. I thought meditation was “silly” and viewed doing hot yoga as just another way to burn calories.
The book ended up in my car after about day 8 and stayed there for the next several months and I would look at it every time I opened my trunk as a reminder of yet one more thing I started and didn’t finish.
Fast forward 5 years. I just getting back into the swing of thing again and I heard the announcement of the start date for the first “40 days” event of 2016. I was elated – I didn’t think twice about it and signed up immediately.
It was soooo much deeper for me this time. Taking time to reflect, meditate, be with my thoughts, think about the stress I’ve been under these past few years in a different light was exactly what I needed right now and I was open and ready for the possibilities
The stress I’ve been under presented itself in my body as a cancerous tumor and it shook me to my core. I knew I had to do things differently now. Approach my recovery differently.
Cancer cells love stress, sugar and a sedentary body so I wanted something more than just a workout. Going back to a gym with the sole purpose of just getting a workout in didn’t feel right for me. I was craving the feeling of moving my body again, sweating, detoxing after radiation, I wanted to challenge my body, my thoughts and my approach to my nutrition and so I began… yoga mat in hand, excited for the journey….
Day 1 – I was still feeling weak and stiff – I could barely sit with my legs crossed as I could feel my the tendons around my ankle that I had sprained so tight I could barely flex my foot. Downward facing dog felt painful. But I just kept going.
I appreciated the opportunity to approach the nutrition portion from a different angle – eating whole foods to fuel your body and not just making what you eat about losing weight. I made a few additional tweaks to my diet, luckily I had already started eating clean long ago so it seemed like an easier transition.
I’ve noticed over the past few weeks that my sweat is different. I don’t sweat easily – I never have, even in yoga, I’m one of the last people to break a sweat and I look in envy sometimes at people who are on their mats in a pool of sweat. That has never been me, until about the last week or so – holy cow! Not only is there way more sweat, it doesn’t smell the way it used to. That may sound weird or gross – but I felt as if I am noticing a physical side effect of being mindful of what goes in my body.
Day 5, day 10, the days have gone by and as I have shown up, unrolled and rolled up my mat, sometimes feeling so incredibly sore from the previous day that I’m not sure how I’ll make it through the class, I’ve noticed a change. I feel lighter. I have no idea what the scale says but I feel lighter in my body and in my mind. I’ve started to unwind. I could feel my mind unwinding as my body loosened up.
Moving into or out of a pose differently, staying a little longer, sitting a little deeper has required that I approach it differently, make space for it and allow it to happen. Whether that happens in a yoga pose, in our relationships, at work or in our habitual behaviour, we want to learn how to begin again and move onto something better.
“How we do our yoga and show up on our mat is how we do our life”…
Inviting a new experience, approaching things differently in my day-to-day, being present, mindful and letting things go is how I want to “do my life” and I’m open and ready for the last 19 days of this journey.